It is not only consciousness that has a limited bandwidth: affect,
notwithstanding it's gestalt, is so too limited. Too much, too fast and we
fail to process - or rather postpone...

I know... the future is going to be perfect!

I resolve to be unusually profound and eloquent on the day of my death....

There is something I want to say, but the language eludes me so I'm saying
other things instead. Reminds me of Nasruddin searching for his keys in the
garden because that was where the light was best....

"Is that the best you can do?"

I can't lie on my right side for long periods of time, nor my back; I can't
sit unsupported; bending is ok, straightening is not; long walks aggravate
everything and being hugged tightly is blue murder....

To my perception, there is a high correlation between risk-averseness,
liability orientation, blandness, lack of authenticity and the current
epitome of professionalism.

"Professionalism is the adherence to a set of values comprising statutory
professional obligations, formally agreed codes of conduct, and the informal
expectations of patients and colleagues. Key values include acting in the
patients� best interest and maintaining the standards of competence and
knowledge expected of members of highly trained professions. These standards
will include ethical elements such as integrity, probity, accountability,
duty and honour. In addition to medical knowledge and skills, medical
professionals should present psychosocial and humanistic qualities such as
caring, empathy, humility and compassion, social responsibility and
sensitivity to people's culture and beliefs"

http://goo.gl/543kp

I was going to quote quite extensively, but you may as well read it
yourself....

http://ping.fm/wHsxH

"Public domain does not equate to private dominion and it is only when
nothing is said that nothing will be known."

RP life is like a pearled / string of moments: now and then: / tears,
smiles, hugs, wrinkles.... #haiku

Happy and Blessed Easter!

Life is an endurance sport

Live long enough and you will collect hurts, pains, scars; things will break
and mend imperfectly or not at all; even genetically errors accumulate. The
passage of time is stamped molecularly on the meat we inhabit; it is stamped
in the pathways of the brain; in the compacted memories that are the
fundament of our prejudices. Live long enough and do enough living and you
accumulate debts of kindness that can not be quantified, cannot be repaid,
that are necessarily transmuted into gifts....

There are some hurts so deep, so broad, so devastating that language fails
irretrievably, irremediably: nothing can be said and yet everything that is
said is part of a deeper communication of sympathy for truly no man is an
island.

I am appreciative at a continually surprised level by the consistency, the
depth, the breadth and warmth of the caring and consideration of so many
that gradations of gratitude become entirely meaningless: I am used up.

If you have thought kindly of me; of us, the family, this is written to you
and about you.

As inadequate as it may be, my language allows me no more: thank you.

Confirm - Disconfirm. It turns out that salience is statistically valid: frugal heuristics work

Need to do a little more thinking on risk neutrality vs risk aversion in the ED

Yesterday's lesson was that risk neutral actions are idealistic in the ED. Practically, for the longevity of one's career one should be risk averse....

Where cost and benefits are about equal, does risk neutrality bias towards action or inaction?

I am unreservedly not in favour of "interesting"...

There is a point at which frustration transitions into something transcendental... - or wishful thinking....

A toast to Bierce's Future!

The world is full of prodigies but my experience of the mean is that it is largely unchanged.

I'm all in favour of knowledge by osmosis

Do you keep notebooks? If yes, would you make them public?

Everytime I get a letter about someone else's missed fracture, I am confirmed in my paranoia....

"I don't quote from books...."

It is time to put away childish things....

Emotional housekeeping

"She began to watch television and tried to beleive the news."

Do the hard work. Take the road less travelled by. Who are they kidding: you still end up dead at the end of it....

To be imperfect is to be vouchsafed Grace....

A life as a monumental work of imagination.

"One must be both a mathematician and a poet. As though poetry were a science; or mathematics an art."

"One spoke of love and other trivia in French; one discussed tragedy and disaster in Russian; one did business in German; and one addressed servants in English."

"that the history of remote ages should always be so much involved in obscurity, uncertainty, and contradiction"

Instant gratification is addictive & withdrawal is a ....

Today has been a learning-disabled day....

Bureaucracy is always frustrating, but bureaucracy in Africa is in a class of it's own. We'll excuse the Middle East: we need another word for what they have

Too much to do.... First things first: & if everything is first?

Some strange emotional alchemy transmutes aggravation into commitment

COMMON ERRORS
OMISSIONS

COMMISSIONS

"She made one of those deceptively simple meals that belie the years of experience in cooking that most women accumulate from childhood."

During a dinner conversation my mom mentioned that when I was 14 I wrote a play that was produced at The Market Theatre. It was a morphed award winning school play that my teachers decided was almost good enough to be done professionally. The "almost" part meant a rewrite that was supposed to make it better for a paying largely adult audience.

The consequence was Disaster. The cast had to learn new dialogue very similar to the old without enough time and very little rehearsal; cues were different and more precisely timed with lighting and sound effects by professionals with much higher expectations than teachers and the paying audience expected something polished.

The original play would have been charming however unsophisticated. The revision was a trial by purgatory for audience and cast.

The lesson: success can be punishing as a stimulus to hubris....

I sat here and thought of you; I sat here long and thought of you as you were then; I sat here past the time of my going and thought of you as you were here with me and alone; I sat here and thought of you as none will think of me after my going....

I want you to know that this place, this seat, this time, here and now, echoes you in silence, in light, in my thoughts: the quanta that make you are immortal....

Language as a bludgeon, a stone age cudgel, a spring breeze, a post- molecular blade. All mixed metaphors aside language is the primary tool....

Forever is actually an impossibly long time....

One grain

We have little affinity for intellect: Planck's constant rarely produces transports of ecstacy but joy and anguish reach us to the quick. Intellect is grafted: we are chemical more deeply and more thoroughly than we are electrical....

"that surfeiting the appetite may sicken and so die"

"You can do anything you want if you are willing to accept the consequences; you can have anything you want if you are willing to pay the price."

Excellence is no accident; it is the consequence of accepted and celebrated imbalance

Write! Resolution. Wish. Prayer. Hope....

Well it's easy to read http://ping.fm/88N6b

http://ping.fm/pnCTA So, I got to meet a famous author at my cousin's in Cape Town this week. Don't read African authors so wasn't familiar with his work; don't plan on reading him either. Seems my cousin has interesting friends.... I don't.

What's the third option?

Primes or Squares?

Proximity

How self indulgent can a confessed hedonist be?

Layered posts; hacking public discourse for privacy...

So, I've not worked on my LifeMap. Life interfered. Would be nice if life allowed sufficient fallow periods to recover from doozies - like crop rotation, but for the amydala

Happy Valentine's to everyone :-)!

Exceptions

"it was the spring of hope, it was the winter of despair"

"Heav’n... the Vision of fulfil’d desire." —Omar Khayyám #sixwords

Falak al aflak. Here and There. #sixwords

Do demons dance delightfully down Devaloka #sixwords

I seem gifted at separating jumping off a cliff with the Splat! at the end.... Guess I always have been

Reading #sixwords

Maladaptive coping mechanisms

To an autonomic neurochemical calculus

I want to feel... I want you to know that I feel... I want to feel... I know that I should feel....

http://ping.fm/Szubk

Good night!

I didn't begin reading seriously and continually until I was 12. & then I discovered archetypes, models of survival and I have since collected and counted and shined them repeatedly. Iown a great many books, more than half of which I've not read. I am not entirely sure I intend reading them, but I am sure that I do not intend not reading them.

They are promises of idyll; and such promises are always welcome on rainy days :-)!

The subject for this week's series of discussions is cancer

A new continuum Fantasy - Wish - Hope - Expectation - Entitlement

See. Assess. Communicate.

Morality as evolutionary outcome?

How primitive are we really?

Reminded again tonight of personal vs private

Was discussing the sensecam this weekend and use cases seemed to be difficult to conceive. Sin-eaters anyone?

A little public service http://ping.fm/dxqXh

Why limit yourself to a single interface to reality?

In defence of mediocrity: life is hard. I will always argue for moving the mean.

Exceptional talent extends the boundaries of impossible.

http://ping.fm/gU6W0

Discussion last night on the transferability of experience; vicarious living notwithstanding :-)

http://ping.fm/TQwbz

It seems I am recently much given to the apperceptionof soul...

So, here is a task: to delineate the shape of a soul

"until out of merely not nothing comes
only one snowflake(and we speak our names "

"with my childhood's faith"

"We are not normal, but we are sane."

We have this one life to live and if we can inhabit its living we can finish happily used up; this bonfire should leave no ash

"all our lives, life happens: both the cork and the ocean ride the waves"
myself

Challenge is another word for frustration

If in every negotiation, the relationship is the argument, why do we not have better developed relationship semiotics

I have just realised that when children's motives do not make sense, I consciously try to model their thinking: I have my own experiences and a great deal of developmental psychology to buttress my experiments.

When adults seem particularly opaque or obtuse or petrified I make no similar attempt to model. I find adult illogic to be frictionless and impenetrable: impossible to model. Perhaps I do them a disservice?

"what the eye sees better the heart feels more deeply"
Kegan

Some losses are insupportable, they break us. And sometimes we are broken irreparably. If we grieve properly we may continue to function; we adapt, but the place from which we move is foreign soil, forever Other.

What essentially constitutes friendship?

A will to fairness as evidence of an innate moral sense?

Authenticity